Your Absence

Missing you is like gasping for air

Inhaling, exhaling, and having a blank stare

Blood in your veins stop running

Feeling like the world is suddenly ending

Every breath is a sharp knife to the chest

Thrusting, stabbing without any rest

Tears begin to run down your face

Each drop speeds down like a race

You were offered the sun and the moon

Yet it was taken from you all too soon

You refuse to hate the bringer of stars

You reject the idea of everything being farce

Bliss hung in the air like heavy mist

Everything was supposed to be sealed by a kiss

You were left hanging just like that

Enduring the disastrous aftermath

You miss so much it hurts 

You miss so much it blurts 

You hate that you can't be together

You hate that there won't be an ever after

The Longest Dream

Disclaimer: So cheesy you could smell it.

I believe in Fate. I believe everything happens for a reason. We may not understand it now or we may not understand at all in this lifetime but... I am not really sure if there is really an explanation, but we can believe there is.

I met the person I have been dreaming of several days ago. Everything was perfect. The night cooperated with us. We enjoyed every bit of it, at least I did. To find the person you have been waiting for is bliss, and that's what I felt that night. We talked, we laughed, our guards were down, and I couldn't care less. I wouldn't mind sharing my forevers with this person. I was lost in someone. I was in a situation where time was eternal and I could see myself reflected in those eyes. Those almond shaped eyes that twinkle everytime a smile appears.

That night, I was more than me. I was someone who I never imagined I could be. I was touched and changed. I cry not just because of pain and grief, but because I am human. I am human to have craved for this person.

I dreamt for 6 hours.

And just like any other dream, it ended. I woke up at 1:01  AM but my eyes were open the entire time. I saw everything happen with both the windows of my soul ingesting the scenery and taking everything in. We can never be together.

All I know is, one night changed my life. I may not understand it now because I'm blinded by doubt and drowned in question, but for sure, one day I will look back and realize why things didn't work out as planned. It's excruciating and heartbreaking how I would build burried in rubble for not getting what I wanted the most, but I will pray to Him that someday in the future I will understand this heartache that one night for 6 hours, I was able to see a dream.

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Confessions Of A Heartbroken

I have been so used to being alone

But all of that changed when you came along

You made me believe in forever

You made me see a happily ever after

The memories we made were the best

We were able to get through any test

We had fights, we had arguments

But i believe there were more merriments

One night we talked about where we were

The usual things we normally encounter 

I came knowing that everything will be fixed

I guess this time there must have been a remiss

Thank you for making me smile, thank you for making me cry 

Thank you for showing me that life is still worthwhile

How I wished that i'd never go away

But there's no longer any reason for me to stay

I said i love you, you said you did too

However, i guess mine was the only true

I hope you find your way

This time dont ever ever go astray

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